The Jason Chapter

These are all poems about my childhood friend Jason when he left. I missed him very much, but he is back in my life now. I feel comfortable enough to share them now.

I wrote this one at IHOP one night. He was in the Army and there was a girl dressed in her Army uniform.

She's in all camo

enjoying her friends

laughing

enjoying life

each breath of it

and all I can do is think about you

How much I miss you

miss you thoroughly

because you stand inside of me

you breathe in

when I breathe in

you breathe out 

when I breathe out

I miss you

deep inside of who I am

the person in which you have helped me become

and I have never missed anyone like I miss you

nothing fills the holes that open when you're gone

I miss you

are words that will never live up to the hollowness inside of me right now

These Days

I want you here everyday

not just in my heart

but physically here to share all of my peaks

all of my pain

here to feel your peaks

your pain

but you are lost somewhere in my soul

even though that is the only place I can seem to find you these days...

Alone

I'm not mad

just...

alone

I need these people and they don't see things

they don't know what each drop floods my memory with

family occasions

anger

my unhappy mother

where are you now?

you were there then

I hate growing up

it took you away from me

you still live inside of me

but I need you to hold my hand

and hold me

you are the only one who makes me feel at ease

you can hold my loneliness in the palm of your hand

and throw it aside

where are you now?

I'm alone