writing in the dark

I keep the lights off

and sit in the dark...

I pretend I'm not alone

but my room is empty

the space between us fills my thoughts

constantly

impatience antagonizes my anxiety

of what will be

or what won't be

where are your thoughts

dreaming?

wanting?

hoping?

anticipating?

I'm sitting in the dark 

literally

figuratively

and I wouldn't be thinking of you

if you didn't make it this way

a puzzle to piece together

or to leave scattered on the floor

which way will the scale tip?

I'm sitting in the dark

grasping for the answers

waiting 

wanting

anticipating

dreaming

hoping you are quietly doing the same somewhere else